I was suppose to get my lazy butt out and shoot today but I laid down on my sofa after my bath and tadah it was already 9pm... 6 hours worth of nightmares *.* good job.
Today was the final submission for my two modules(: No pictures yet as I did not bring my point and shoot with me but overall I guess I did meet my own standard just that I felt that perhaps I could have pushed myself just a little further.
The nightmares or 'dreams' I got today really reminded me of who I really am. I was always hoping that none of it was true but in the end, I don't really belong anywhere. I am not who I thought I was. All this time, I am just living on borrowed time while pushing my luck.
A really long time ago, when you asked me to help you, you told me that if it was not given, I do not own it. Right now, I can't even help myself let alone own anything. Its so convenient for you to shut your mind and push everything to me but hey. I don't really care anymore. But one things for sure and that is I will not lose to you. I just found out something that I would really like to do so don't expect me to give in to you anymore.
What on earth am I doing with my life? Like seriously. I don't know anymore.
Tag replies:
Angela: He hates me thats for sure(: I think he is pretty surprise that I manage to bring down my temperature<3
Spy: When I am free.
