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I have not been blogging for an eternity.
Well it felt like forever considering that I used to blog almost everyday.

I was 'invited' to the opening night of a Leica store at Raffles Hotel yesterday and it was really fun!
Opening nights are always welcomed as they serve great wine as compared to the house wine I had on Wednesday. I shall stick to my principle of never drinking house wine again.
I met photographers, marketing managers, gallery curators and Singaporean collectors. Its a concept store so one side of the shop sells the Leica products while the other side is a gallery featuring the works of a Chinese photographer.

I got to view the 38K limited edition titanium M9 and play with my dream rangefinder.
I did not 'take' the M9 home as suggested by F whom I bumped into last night but I managed to take a picture of the M9(:

10388SGD more to go....

There was also a photography booth whereby you can get you photos taken by the new medium format -S2. Its a pretty camera with a pretty pice tag of 35K for the body alone.

So I had my picture taken with M and I reshot it on my S90. The color my S90 reproduced looks really weird so I tuned it to black and white. I am not bias to the Leica X1.

Tadah. My first picture with my photo mentor/ friend/ redindian8D by the S2.

I can't find the words to describe how fortunate I am to have M as my teacher and friend.
I am just incredibly fortunate.

After the opening for the store, we headed down for another exhibition and I met a really incredible journalist. As I spoke to her about my 'free' work for the IFC choir, she asked me how was I going to make a living from photography? I mean I thought about it a million times but that question really caught me off guard. I considered press photography agencies like AP, Reuters and I kind of have a floating idea as to where I want to head to in the future but when reality bites, I guess I am back to the starting point of asking myself what on earth am I doing and what do I want.

Maya and M both commented that I was not focused and distracted by something. If two person says the same thing, I guess I should start going back to my roots.
I see it in my images that I am not getting the shots I visualize and that I am hesitating a lot when I shoot on the streets. Heck. Its not just street photography. I had been hesitating in all aspect of my photography.

This is my recent still life shot. Nice pose, nice light but that is all to it. I really don't know what am I lacking. I shot a few hundred frames with this styling but I am not happy with the overall results. One image out of a few hundred is pathetic. It just shows that I am not thinking before I take my shot. I should probably shoot with the Hasselblad or a film camera to force me to think.

I shot for the IFC choir on Tuesday and it was not my best shoot ever. I have 67 frames but I just feel that I can do more and that the images are not up to my expectations.

Was it fear? Was I too focused on my techniques? Or was I not focused at all.
What the hell am I doing? T_T

Help.