As stubborn as usual(:

You know that you probably screwed up your colour calibration when you have a purple skin tone O.o
So much for playing 'match the two colours on your computer and start praying'

Its pretty late right now. Or rather, pretty early. Playing 'dearest' on my I-tunes seems to be the best way to start the morning. Cars rumble on despite the cover of darkness while I huddle up in warmth of my blanket. Once again, this is one of those times whereby I am so tired that I can't sleep. I was pretty much plagued with nightmares every night that sleeping becomes a dread. Night after night, the door, the mirror, the door and then, her.
I would be lying if I said that I am not afraid. Underneath the smiley exterior of mine are broken fragments of the both of us drowning and fighting our way though this never ending nightmare or she prefers to call it a dream whereby she is the dreamer and I am the one who is dreamt up. Its not the greatest feeling being the one who is dreamt up but I shall leave with it for now.
Its a liars game and the winner will be the one who keeps it up for the longest period of time without anyone knowing. As I learnt, convince yourself that you speak the truth and others will follow suite. But it is so exhausting to keep this up. I keep on telling myself that I will be fine but I am probably not. I am so so afraid.

Vivaldi's allegro is next on my playlist and my mood lightens instantly. Tomorrow or today, will be yet another busy day. I am getting rather fond of busy days as it occupies my mind preventing my thought from wandering.

I will be fine. Even if I am pushed down again and again, I know what I want and I will get there. I am not afraid. Partially.

Tag replies:

Chanel: haha I still have to work on it a lot more 8D

JKT: What qoute? Is it the one where you go: "Maybe we can use it to stock up on shuttlecocks...?"
Yea thats the way to go man 8D Stock up on shuttlecocks(: It always makes me smile 8D