The lone game.

Sometimes I wonder why do I bother to go to such extends in isolating myself. Everything and everyone is perfectly positioned around me in a way that nothing will affect me given a few exceptions. Then again, it is rather tough working alone. Not knowing anything while others enjoys laughter in a group, we chuckle alone silently breaking into a occasional glance to the back of our shoulders as if seeking for an approval or confirmation. As if we belong, but do not belong in the safety of a 'group.'
But seriously speaking, I really could not care less about being alone just that when it so happens that I miss classes and have no clue to what is going on, its really hard. I pride myself at being the best in class yes I am arrogant. shoot me although it can get really boring to be sitting and listening to the same thing that I learnt like 5 years back. So I guess I do crave for some animate object be beside me to reassure me that I am not the only one going through this alone. To cope with my boredom, while the rest of the class is studying and writing in romanji, I decided to torture myself by doing up my notes in hiragana. It been a while since I written anything in Japanese so I am a little rusty but it should be fun challenging myself. Again.

Thing is, some part of me actually enjoys being alone! For starters, there is no one buzzing beside you throwing waves of questions at you while you wrack your brains trying to find out the answers only to come up with crap. Instead, I get peace coupled with my ability to 'shut off' without anyone knowing and disturbing me. So while I am physically there for lessons, my mind is throwing a chocolate cupcake party. When it comes to lunch time, sometimes it is pretty nice to just sit alone and reflect on all the stuff that has been happening and start looking for solutions. Although when you are not thinking and start to pay attention to your surroundings, the world seems to be staring at you and you feel awkward as everyone faces another except you. Then again, I am thinking too much again and I should attend a chocolate banana party tomorrow. Yayness.

Ah wells. I hope I am shooting again this Thursday. What a odd day T___T
Lets just pray that I can finish my work on time so that I can shoot. It should be something different as for starters, hip hop was never my genre of dance. Tried it once, didn't like it at all>.<
Ah wells. If everything goes wrong, I promise to shoot on Friday to get new images! is anyone free for a drink 8D
Field trip to some printing company tomorrow 8 major solutions to be found stacked with deadline before the week ends and counting. My life is a drama and I am enjoying it even if I have to do it alone. Yayness

Tag replies:

FanofAlice: haha I rolled around in bed for four days already>.<

 jonny: you take care too!

chanel: the egg hatched!!!! haha<333