Backstabbers.

 

I should have known. In fact I always knew. Just because I did not voice out, it does not mean that I accept it. However, this time round you seriously crossed the line. Ah wells. Perhaps I am so used to this kind of nonsense that I am not as upset as I thought. Maybe it was because I actually saw it coming from your behavior that I was not surprised. Well lets put it this way. If you had meant to hurt me, I don't really care anymore. I just felt really numb that you could actually say those things. In some way, I never did trusted you as I saw this day coming. In fact I really can't trust anyone anymore can I? In a way I guess this is pretty good for me since Naru is still missing that I cut off all connections with the house. Looks like the only thing I will be missing is the alcohol.
Ah wells. Life. Move on.


I lad lunch with M today and he went through the shots I took at Chinatown.

"You are close! But not close enough"  -M

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I really agree with the fact that I am not playing with my angles enough as I took almost everything while standing. But it does not change the fact that I did really badly for those two days>.> Its like I can't even classify them as record shots. They are just failed shots. In fact, I was really tempted to delete the entire folder...
But I should not really consider the shoot as a giant waste of time as doing nothing is a bigger waste of time:3
If a photo is not good enough, it is probably not close enough so I will be going back to my 'favorite' place in Singapore to shoot again 8D
People at work here I come!!!

Its the 3rd week into my modules and I am starting to feel the pressure. My 1m by 1m painting concept is getting me nowhere so I decided to scrap my bokeh idea and focus on what I am good at instead. -Blending colors. (: Yes it is going to be a 1m by 1m painting celebrating colors. I am such a genius. Yayness.

With all kinds of stupid things revolving around my life right now, I actually developed a really bad habit of being unable to sleep at night>.> Its like I completely switched my time zone to some country which is really bad as I not only do I look like a zombie every morning, I tend to get very childish/ forgetful/ careless/ sleepy/ irritated easily and basically show off the perfect example of what I hate to be>.> Especially the childish and careless part. *slaps self*


Tag replies:

FanofAlice: Thanks! They cost me a bomb>.<

Wei Kee: Haha go get yourself a walking ATM that will solve all your problems 8D
Try looking for part time sales job. Like for Heartland mall there are a few shops looking for part timers.

Angela: This pair of urethane actually 'glows' a deep blue when you place them under the sunlight and its really pretty! In fact they are so reflective that you can actually make up the shape of my window!
*ebil grins* -cough-geturethanes!-cough-

Alvinz: haha I will probably spend CNY chioning work! But I will spare some time to shoot as well<333