Music. how could I give up???

Last Friday was one of my worst Friday ever. I screwed up my cello lessons so badly my teacher was literately screaming at me>.> I turned Bach's minuet 1 and 3 into a such a disaster as everything was so badly played. Although I know the song, the entire feel of the song sounded so depressing. It was the worst version of Bach's minuet I ever heard and I was the one who played it>.>

Throughout the week, I wanted to give up my cello. Not only was I pressed with financial issues, I had a whole lot of internal emotional problems to deal with. So why not just give up? I was so convinced that giving up my cello would solve some of my problems and it also seemed like the most convinient thing to do. After all, I would save myself 200+SGD per month whereby the money can be used to fund my life which was going way downhill.

However when I heard H played Bach's cello prelude again, I realised how much I really loved music. In this lovely 15+ life span of mine, I never really acomplised anything great. I was the jack of all trades but a master at none. Besides the fact that I was the VP in my old school's choir, what else do I really have to my name? Not much(: I know about 7 languages besides english but none are in depth. I conducted ochestras but I have no in depth theory background. My grammar and spelling for my English language are questionable and I don't even want to talk about my Japanese and Chinese. Lastly, every single investment besides my dolls never exsisted after that fateful day. So what do I have left? The theroy of self-hypnotism? Or my lovely acting skills(:

Point is that from now on, I will never give up on my music(: Although I dropped my theory >.> The Bach I played today sounded much more carefree and beautiful after I sorted things out<3 A big thank you to H for playing Bach's cello prelude and Bi for Chopin's Fantasy impromtu. You know if both of you were not so stubborn, you would probably end up as great musician in Europe(: But for now, I've decided!
Even if I were to borrow, rob or beg, I will not give up on music anymore(:
I will be doing Handel next week(: Hopefully I can move on to Gavotte soon<333

andand after 5 years, I finally finished the last episode of Kyou kara maou today!!!! YAYNESS!!! But the disc is stuck inside my bose system and it wont come out... CURSE YOU AHEM DISC!!!!!



Quote from Mr T: Don't sing because you want to gain fame or you just want the points. You sing because you love music. So never give up on music.

Tag replies~

Kite: lols! lets enjoy those 2 years<3

Lawliet: Haji lane is evil>.< Very evil>.<

Chanel: We must have coffee soon<3

Steph: O.o Nuuuuu>.< My wallet will die>.>